human

take frequent vacations from social connections to rebalance the soul. in this you shall become learned in conscious and almost selfish decision making which is void of supreme influence by society. yet then again, aren't we all creations of the society in which we so much loathe? therefore in fighting the claws of society are we not thus avoiding our own inner demons? we are exactly what we fear the most. we are...

island

all we are doing everyday is surviving, because this certainty ain't living.

binder

we are all born free, it is within the constructs of our conscious mind that we confine ourselves.

many more

death is way too easy, i'd rather suffer and keep on living. there's no such thing as death as long as we live on in the hearts and minds of those who love us. you only live once...and then you live on once more. for you are not gone until everything you are is forgotten.

love is in the u-n-i-verse

i'd think by now love would finally be universal but i guess that's only between a man and a woman. same sex couples don't decide to love each other because it's going against social standards, they love each other because they have finally found someone who understands and doesn't judge them. maybe we're just jealous that we can't find that person and therefore we live in the fear of eternal loneliness. maybe we can't handle that we don't have ultimate control over the world and that no currency can ever buy us the power in which this society so craves. i think it's just greed, it's inhumane and selfish. of all the crimes that are committed on a daily basis, all the hurt and sorrows, we continue to hurt the very people who just want to love. this is unnecessary pain being inflicted upon those who are different in an attempt to prove a point, to prove that we are never really able to live freely, or so they want us to think. as long as we are united, our love conquers.

diamond in the rough(er life)

nobody can love you, you're going against everything that society deems as 'normal'. somebody will love you, you just have to search harder. or wait. they're there, timing is crucial.

self understanding

maybe living in my head is the only way i can deal with being alone. maybe my silence is an indiciation that i'm emotionally unstable and yearn for something more fulfilling. maybe my reclusive behaviours are an obvious fear of the harshness of reality. maybe i'd rather die alone then expose my soul to mindless individuals who care not for the pain of another's struggles. maybe this is the only reason i'm still alive. this is the only reason i'm not dead.

end.

past life, future life, present life, given life, taken life, living life and death.

i'll be there

this may all be a fantasy but it's all i have to believe in right now. please don't think any lesser of me, i'm impatient and need to relocate myself to places which bring me closer to you. i may only know of you what other people have told me but for once i need to trust myself. you better be ready because i'm coming and once i'm in the zone, there is no time to rest.

self oppression.

fuck being literate, i've got some shit i need to say. it may not make sense at anyone, but to me it's the only way i can express this whirlwind of emotions which are wreaking havoc across the edged plains of my soul. don't ask me what this all means because not even i am to understand this moment in life. maybe one day i'll begin to understand, but for now i'll just push through the murky waters of my own oppression.

right? na wrong.

nothing is ever right, until it's wrong. even when you may think the right is wrong, the wrong will always be right. free your mind

shut up

don't talk about it, be about it.

laters

how can my biggest fear be losing it all when i have nothing to lose? you can sit and wait but i'm already gone.

not scared

believe that fear is merely a mental game of jenga waiting for you to pull out the right peace before it all comes crashing down. your fear is introverted.

closed

open your soul before you open your legs

Ahdickshons

Addictions are mental facinsations, which can be overcome by distracting the attention to something more intriguing until eventually the subject of mental consumption is entirely subverted.

the problem

these days everybody wants to talk but nobody wants to listen.

true friends

what many people don't realise is that i remember everything, and when i'm at the pinnacle of my success, i will rightfully take those who've remained loyal to me along for the ride. i don't have friends, only family, because if you're a true friend of mine i see you as special enough to be apart of those i would die for.

different times

i can't promise i won't change, but i will do my best to maintain the true me.

solo

being alone is most comforting when you can trust and rely on yourself to enjoy life. sometimes only you can understand and change your way of living.

Self depreciation

It's easy to keep your enemies close when you're your own worst enemy.

Just do it

Do what you want, tell yourself where you want to be and release that positive energy into the universe. Work hard within yourself towards maintaining an energizing work ethic. Always listen but never be told you can't achieve your greatest aspirations. There is nothing that can not be created, all it takes is a continuous drive to succeed and the knowledge that the power to be great lays within the core of your willpower. Even the most successful people begin at the bottom of the pit and had to crawl their way to the top. They are constantly knocked down and despised, yet everyday they work past these challenges in order to do what they love. If you love what you do nothing can stop you from becoming the happy and beautiful person that you deserve to be. It all starts now, of course you won't be able to control everything that happens in life but it's about embracing every moment, enduring the negative, moving forward with an educated mind frame from those moments which didn't always go your way. Yes you will fail, yes you will be so unmotivated that you feel like quitting, it's inevitable, but your greatest triumph is pulling yourself from the depths of despair and onto the highway of success. Think about the future yet live in the present, you are your own author and this is your life story to tell the world.

and i'm gone

i'm my own worst enemy so either way i've got the competition in my palm. taking things into my own hands, clenched fists, i'm crushing them all. until i realise the only thing i'm crushing is myself to the floor. caged in, hate driven, i'm always trying to even the score. there's nothing left of me but the ashes of my core.

function of reality

no time left to regret, stride down the lane of worldly temptations, bypass the fields of despair and be encompassed by the clouds of success. dreaming is for well wishers, living is the ultimate decision.

<->

where shall i go? left where there's nothing right? or right where there's nothing left?

dead or alive

every second we are alive we are either one second closer to death or one second closer to living. are you here to live or die? choose wisely, for death does not condone cheaters and life is a gift worth opening.

forever young

growing up is for boring people who have lost their zest for life and would rather become docile bodies who passively consume the regimes of a captialist society.

so what if i'm immature?

emancipation

i've accepted that i'm a failure and that i'll never live up to other people's expectations of who i should be. i believe the only person i should be is myself when i'm most happy. i'm never going to be perfect or be like everyone else, rather i'll always be me and that's the best i can do. so i apologise in advance for letting you down, i don't regret being a rebel for the sake of my own liberation. i'm happy with who i'm becoming and there is nothing better than freedom.

make it happen

there is no age limit in life, you're only as old as you think you are. you're right where you belong in this world and there's nothing that you can't try. your only limitation is the one you set for yourself, there is no such thing as barriers. we have all the keys to open all the doors in our lives, all we have to do is find the right key for the right lock. the patience and continual search may be terribly annoying, but at the end of it isn't the prize always worth the struggle? it's time for you to step up and make everything you've ever imagined, today's reality. the world doesn't care about your dreams, as you're withering away wondering what could have been, the world is constantly moving and improving. the only time which is right, is the time in which you make right for you. live it up, die young at heart.

the people

we don't need a black president, we need a leader who is going to inspire and stand up for what is right. it doesn't matter what colour your skin is, your ability to make descisions may be totally different to that of the general public. besides being 'black' does not mean you represent an entire spectrum of individuals from across the globe, it is just an identity created by the media. we aren't black, white, yellow or tan, we are people.

copy

originality is dead, we are all just copies of a copy which have been copied from a previous copy of a copy.

do you

it's just those moments in life when nothing anybody says can change your drive to 'make it happen'. you just have to stop giving a fuck and realise that other people's negative views of you are usually just underlying jealousy. your only challenge in life is overcoming that undenying fear which is buried deep in your conscious. i'm done pretending i can live up to other people's standards and done accepting a false sense of happiness. my only happiness is the happiness that i create, because nobody knows me better than me.

fear

“Fear is such a weak emotion, that’s why I despise it. We scared of almost everything. Afraid to even tell the truth. So scared of what you think of me. I’m scared of even telling you. Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it too. I’m locked inside a cell in me…”
— Lupe Fiasco (Words I Never Said)

finding me.

there comes a point in your life when you really realise who you are and what you really want. it all begins with a subtle hint of stubbornness, when you start moulding your dreams into a contemporary reality. these moments i feel, are the most liberating of all the experiences we have in our life span. we finally enter into a realm of understanding our purpose in life and fulfilling our every reason for being. it can be really easy to forget who you are and what you want due to the fear of being an outcast of this society in which we live. our greatest triumph is converting that fear into the drive for success. being successful does not neccessarily relate to fame or fortune, it means something different to everybody. in all honesty, success is what you make it, it's a feeling of unstoppable force where nothing else can make you happier or more complete. do what you love for if you don't love what you do, you may never become the real you.

polar opposites

it's not until you meet somebody completely opposite to your personality that you really begin to understand who you really are.

intro

hi i’m candizzle, i was born and raised in australia to south african parents, i love to watch football (soccer), i’m minoring in spanish at university and thai food is my favourite. please try and label me, not that i’d care anyway.

(this globalised youth, we will not be stereotyped.)

help.

i'd rather make many mistakes and learn many lessons, than make no mistakes and learn nothing. what are you scared of?

word 2 ya

words are just symbols created by society in an attempt to describe our every emotional reaction. the problem is, words are just visual verbals.

words mean nothing.

:S

i need somebody to retune the strings of my heart, for they no longer strum a familiar sound of love.

twenty more

20 more words to say how i feel, with 20 more ways of expressing how i love. 20 more looks of deceit and forgiveness, followed by 20 more tears of hope and despair. 20 more beats of my broken heart and 20 more steps before i hit the ground....

i hit the ground and i am done,
i'm done pretending i can muster up the power to make myself look happy,
i'm done looking at my reflection and seeing something other than who i am,
i'm done wishing i was there and not here....

from now i want to be here, for when i am here i am present,
and finally i am beginning to believe that my presence is a gift.
that i have been tightly bound, just waiting to be unravelled.
see the thing is, the only person who could unravel me is....me.
so i'm here, i'm ready, my naked mind will spin 20 truths,
and in 20 years, i'll be waiting for you to unravel too.