huh

surrender in order to survive
fight in order to live

truth or dare

open your eyes
everything you have ever dreamed of
is right in front of your face

dare to dream
dare to believe
dare to believe your dreams

seek the truth of your dare

stop.

notice me

please

so..

just thought i'd inform whoever reads this, that shihan is one of the most amazing poets i have ever heard. here's a snippet from his poem "flashy words"

flashy words make the world turn but, it don't turn right
so i use these real eyes, to realize, the real lies
being spoken but not heard
cause we are more fascinated by that which is fabricated
so i tell you a blind man once said i once saw
believe what he said but not believe what he said he saw
like the mute who told the deaf man the true meaning of life

wah.

giving up is complete and utter nonsense

<34all

everyone's always talking about how much they love their mama
i love my papa too! so papa here's some love from me to you <3

mean!

embrace the meaning of the word mean
but where does mean begin to mean what it's meant to mean
and what if all that it means is nothing of a meaning to mean mean?
the meaning is never meant to mean anything
until mean mean's something of a meaning to you

morning-night

ive been sun licked and moon kissed
loved by two lovers of parallel universes
breathing gushes of sweet light
into something called day and night
supreme rulers of the limitless skies
they are we and we are they

different

not judging yourself is so hard when it's ingrained in your regular thought patterns. the media are so twisted for making us feel inferior to their superficial notions of 'beauty'. you are gorgeous, don't ever stop believing that.

needs

i don't need motivation
i just need practicality

existence

like sand slipping through your fingers
life moves a grain at a time
each grain representing a mistake, a revelation and an eternal prophecy
about the tempo of time in the track of life
of how life is a time in which each grain must fall
fall through that slender pear shaped glass of the hour
we are the conductors of such movement
we define our own course, our explicit actions
our lies, secrets, truths and memories are all locked away in this capsule
one grain can be the catalyst of a frozen life
cut short by the shameless actions of the conductor
let us never see this hourglass shatter
for life is far too precious to be destructed by carelessness

do it

if you got enough energy to believe
you damn sure have enough energy to achieve
do it.

surgery

can i see the real me? i've been patiently waiting in this room for hours now. am i on life support? give me something to go by! was the operation successful? did my cells accept the raw substance of who i really am? should i look for the worst....too bad i'm hoping for the best. i know who i am, i know the formidable strength i am capable of exerting. there is no way i am going to let myself fade into the darkness. no way i am going to fall at the hands of the ordinary. what!? my heart is beating rapidly! it's breaking the blurred lines between life and luminescence. i'll just wait outside, the light is blinding my spheres of vision. make sure you put me on a drip filled with knowledge of accepting who i really am about to become. change the channel to a frequency which allows my new beginning to be captured and noted for this historically proven acknowledgement. make me comfortable. can i see the real me now? oh i see me and me, we're checking out.

cruising.

steering the gears of life
stepping up 1st, erasing reverse
stalling at every corner for observation
pumping brakes of curiosity
drive slow, you never know

yum

i could really go for a slice of the glory now
my hunger is a stabbing pain
maybe some spread of passion shall go down sweet
ill toast it real nice with the heat from my heart
as i pour a cup of life and scull it like water
this is food for thought

sh

7 days of solitude
the silence is so loud

desire

im unconventional
it's pure bliss

the holiday

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends...

You still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door.

And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.

dirty secrets

clean lies

no regrets

each one of us is dying a little bit every single day
let's make this life worth living

new air

cleaning out

chaos

sometimes life is such a pandemonium.
find peace, untie the ropes of discomposure.
seek clarity pure to the soul,
discover life's true beauty.

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the rain cleanses my soul

love bomb - n.e.r.d

Sitting Here in this white padded room
Imagining I'm a meteor flying out through the distant space
How does tiny speckle earth destroy tomorrow
So capable of so many things
Why make life taking planes
But But I believe, that when you lose your route
Choose the sunlight
It could be your guide
No more political dreams
Not another excuse
Don't need another love song we need a love bomb

To just blow us away
To freaking blow the lights out
Turning night to day
Hear it from miles away
A chance to make it right now
F**k what the government say
We gotta save some lights now
Is that OK?

truth

this would could be such a beautiful place

revelation

man is always flawed
god's will shall regime supreme.
in a moment of darkness,
his radiance illuminates the earth.
we are the children of the light.
fear no man, for the lord is our saviour.
at the gates of heaven our truth is liberated.
our souls shine bright for the love of his grace
man shall be redeemed at the hands of salvation

exploration

constantly searching
for a piece of me that is yet to prosper.
within my resting place i contemplate,
dwelling on those similar thoughts of convention,
of conventional and mundane lives.
in rebellion i shall be liberated,
seeking to only please myself from within.
demonstrated through my structured seclusion,
i find my troubles.

constantly searching,
for the real me.

art

satisfaction of my hunger for the food of life

this is my interlude

it's time to take a break
and find myself

resistance

dont fight that feeling,
of being lost and afraid.
not knowing the outcome or the course.
every step towards an undestined future,
ride the wheels of the unknown.
seek the unattainable glory,
go beyond the limits.
succeed.

don't be shy

we're all the same in the end

sugar.

found these one teaspoon designs in a magazine and loved them so much my friend jess and i painted them....

i wish

i was this cool of a kid..



hip as hot damn