she was stalking me, in my dreams, in my nightmares, every morning and every night. she was there, abusing me, congratulating me, telling me the truth and pushing the lies through her teeth. all i wanted to do was run, hide, fade into oblivion; but there was no escape from her claws, she had me trapped. every night i would look past my ceiling and ask the man past the stars why he wont save me? why he won't use his power to grant me the justice i believed i disturbed. every day i would look for answers, always pretending life was beautiful when all i saw was decit and pain. i started to feel sorry for myself, like everything i had believed in was not enough to take me to heaven. i looked into the mirror searching for some sort of hope, some sort of strength, but all i got was the pain in her eyes. she was everything i am, everything that is stopping me from being who i want to be. i was fighting myself, being haunted by my own fear, my own negativity, my own resistance. the cowardice had consumed me, i was my own worst enemy, wasting away, falling deeper and deeper into the fires of a wrathful demise. it was enough, i couldn't run anymore, couldn't let her damage my determined soul. i met the real me and she was the epitome of my happiness. at that moment i was reborn, raising up out of the flames like a phoenix. i never ran again, she gave me the strength i needed to become a warrior of society. she is me and i am her, together we are truly alive.
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