diamond in the rough(er life)

nobody can love you, you're going against everything that society deems as 'normal'. somebody will love you, you just have to search harder. or wait. they're there, timing is crucial.

self understanding

maybe living in my head is the only way i can deal with being alone. maybe my silence is an indiciation that i'm emotionally unstable and yearn for something more fulfilling. maybe my reclusive behaviours are an obvious fear of the harshness of reality. maybe i'd rather die alone then expose my soul to mindless individuals who care not for the pain of another's struggles. maybe this is the only reason i'm still alive. this is the only reason i'm not dead.

end.

past life, future life, present life, given life, taken life, living life and death.

i'll be there

this may all be a fantasy but it's all i have to believe in right now. please don't think any lesser of me, i'm impatient and need to relocate myself to places which bring me closer to you. i may only know of you what other people have told me but for once i need to trust myself. you better be ready because i'm coming and once i'm in the zone, there is no time to rest.

self oppression.

fuck being literate, i've got some shit i need to say. it may not make sense at anyone, but to me it's the only way i can express this whirlwind of emotions which are wreaking havoc across the edged plains of my soul. don't ask me what this all means because not even i am to understand this moment in life. maybe one day i'll begin to understand, but for now i'll just push through the murky waters of my own oppression.