life ain't easy

i'm not going to lie to you, i'm scared shitless. i don't want to fail, don't want to fall into the depths of the deteriorated bodies. something like this doesn't grant you second chances, one attempt, 50/50. it's not that i'm afraid of the challenge, it's just the aftermath that has me doubting myself. it's my strength that im so unsure about, my strength to rise in the face of defeat. you know what, i'll never know until i try, so fuck it, life wasn't meant to be easy.